John was afraid.
He started by carefully weighing each word. He said, “I am aware of the serious implications that my actions have — the act of trespassing and the brazen stealing of military property in a secure facility.” “However, I would like you to know that my motives weren’t malicious.

Fear of repercussions was my biggest concern, especially at a time when I was just beginning to experience the joys that come with being a grandfather. I thought I would be able to move on with my life, free of the shadows left by my mistakes …”